i really always forget to blog. i thought i would really be into..i even created a better-ish one on wordpress. i still forget to write...i still don't remember to say anything good or worthwhile.it's starting to get nice out...i love that. i hate the cold. i'm going to go back to the gym...monday...i swear it...and that puts me in a better mood...so maybe ..after all that... There's always the fear with the internet..the one that people who don't need to see it will find it and read it? yeah, there's that. i mean i could write about plans i want to work and this and that and all the rest...but what if...what if....you know...what if...?

according to the surgeon general...

if one glass of wine is good for you....what does a whole bottle do for you? 

i sing songs to silverware and to my food

in honor of the fact that it looks like there maybe a number of top chef episodes on tonight...

and the fact that i didn't watch it all that well last night..the fact that it's still emergency parking and i can't move my car or i'll never be able to park it again..and my phone is being stupid..

i just made an awesome sandwich...

so here are my 25 favorite food items...(in no particular order)

1) coffee.i love coffee.fun flavor coffee.iced coffee.it's all good.

2) tempeh. its so good...

3) sriaccha. it's perfect with everything.

4) Tabasco popcorn

5) cheese. all cheese is good. even string cheese.i love string cheese.

6) water

7) spinach and lentil soup

8) bagels-good bagels. with cheese and tomato and a little oregano..melted

9) spinach bread. my mom makes awesome spinach bread. 

10) black olives

11) avocado

12) mango salsa-especially combined with something cooked in sriaccha

13) tea.almost any kind of tea. unsweetened iced tea is my favorite

14) black beans and rice

15) vegetable pizza 

16) blue cheese for the crust of the vegetable pizza

17) fruit salad

18) tofu stir fried with good plum sauce..or in the form of an awesome sandwich..

19) saag paneer

20)twizzlers 

21)macaroni & cheese with lots of pepper

22) fried ravioli

23) raspberry sauce

24) awesome egg sandwich's with sriaccha , avocado , cheese and onion

25) pad thai

happy hollow...

being 5 hours away from the person you love sucks.

release the dogs...

you sit down to a huge meal..and one by one ..gather around and give thanks for your family and friends , health and wealth...its full of love and kisses , blessings and good wishes....

everyone goes to sleep..thankful for a wonderful evening.

then you get up at 3am...stand outside a discount department store- bum rush the door and kill a man.

i hope that next year , as you sit down to give thanks once again...you make sure to be thankful for the dvd player , slippers , and the hits of the 80's volume 2 that you got such a great deal on...i mean really...it was a steal.

what makes me even more proud of the human race...is the people who plan to sue for the fact that , while being just as greedy as those around them..got hurt. nice. really nice. now , i have no love for multi-million dollar corporations... but no one told you to get up at 3am..stand at a door for hours and then trample and push and beat down the people standing next to you..

joy to the world..

election...or citizens of the world....be forewarned..

ok...so the tokyo police club line in the title only really should make us all fearful if mccain wins.that's a scary thought.i told myself i wasn't going to watch the coverage..but i started. its been on about 23 minutes- and i'm kind of terrified. im not ready to move to another country..i mean sure...there's canada and im totally ready for that...but i've been thinking about the cold and how i don't like it...so i've been rethinking that whole plan...

please don't let mccain win. please please please don't ....

well...off to hollywood for a drink or two..to be nervous and election obsessed in public..

oh facebook...

so facebook - the social networking site that reconnects people with almost everyone they have ever known in life altogether.

i kind of love it. i kind of hate it. 

cause what it really does - is remind you of all the decisions that you made that got you to where you are right now. ...while at the same time showing you the decisions everyone else has made to get them to where they are.i'm not talking about the friends you see every day or every week at the bar..the friends you met at your current place in life. im talking about the friends you haven't seen in years...since highschool..since college...maybe even before.

it's so different... i mean you are all the same age and share so many of those early ..growing up/ learning from experiences...but your lives are so different now. right now , im not sure if im jealous of some of those lives or not. im torn. i mean ..sure it would be nice right now if i were getting ready to put my kids to bed and talk about my day and what the kids did with my husband...but at the same time that kind of scares the fuck out of me. cause its a wednesday night...i've been home from work for a few hours ..and drank a bottle of wine and made a bunch of new amazing playlists for my ipod... texted with a few people...and if i felt like spending money..id probably go over to hollywood and play some trivia...wake up tomorrow and hate work all day. that doesn't scare me. that's kind what i know. i mean sure , i got spoiled for awhile ... not working until 11am ish and granted it was until whatever time...but at the same time... i got to talk antiques with mike ness...and laugh at ashlee simpson's vocal lessons... have a hug out contest with gavin degraw...i realize i just name dropped a lot...but it never really affected me at all. i mean it was all kind of whatever..just another day...(alright- the mike ness thing made me stop breathing for a second...but its mike ness...c'mon now-he has written some of the best songs ever in the history of life...) does that make me jaded - i don't know. i guess i kind of am. i mean people are just people...and what you see and hear isn't always what's real. and i guess that's mostly my problem. what's that whole thing about what's good for one person isn't always good for the next...or one man's garbage is another's treasure...geese and ganders and all that...i guess i really just want the best of both worlds...i guess my self pitying tonight is about the fact that i've never been offered both worlds... at least not in the sense that i want to be...at least not in sense that it's ever been real enough to make it happen.